Blogs are just blogs, right? But some people take what I put up here too seriously :( But that's not why I'm moving actually. Reason I'm moving is because I think I outgrew sleeping_shadow. I've had it for about five years.
Saturday was a mad rush of activities! School to print stuff at 3pm, exams at 5pm, dinner at 7.30pm and partying at night. Shan't do a what-I-did-today kinda post, but here are the pictures from last night!
Dinner at The Pines for a JUGAS event. Cousin Andrea.
Alex. After an eight course meal, met Alex, and he brought me for fresh oysters at Oyster Bar.
Then it was off to MoS for a little partying! Alex and I went around Clarke Quay and got a few drinks at various bars, just to check out the different places. By the time we went to MoS, I was pretty tipsy. Alex fed me Bacardi 151. It burns!! But Happy high Happy high!
Deeg and I. Smashed! JK and I. Smashed! Met pretty Tania in the toilet! I was stupid-faced high! ARRGHH! Mahenny and Jonathan. Look at that face. Photowhoring - with props! [From mahenny.]
So it was a happy night. The worst part of the night was when I tripped on the staircase at BarFly and fell on my hands and knees. Now my right knee hurts. Fuck. Other than that, everything was gooooooood! Dancing on a high is damn fun. Left the club at about 5am and headed for supper with Alex, who sent me home.
I realized I sent people random messages. Sorry if I was random last night! I feel feelings amplified when I'm high!
Tuesday is my last mid-term paper. AWESOME! Then I'm going to learn mahjong! YAY! :)
I watched this back in JC. Bev recently showed it to me again. This one has English translation and the song and MTV is just great. Watch please! Made me cry again. ♥
Two days ago, Ivan Phua messaged me. "eh.. ur new friendster pic is damn guai lan leh aunty ah aunty.. chill man.. what happened to the friendly mango sin i know? haha"
I said, "Hahaha damn guai lan right. Haha. Take care, guava!"
And he said, "Haha. I'm just amazed. You're guai lan and proud of it. Haha. You rock la, mango. Haha."
Very amused. Hahaha. Mango and Guava is an ongoing joke. We find a fruit name that will suit us. You know, like, you look like Apple, you look like Orange, etc. Mine is Mango because...-drum roll for a stupid reason- Mango Sin sounds like Mangosteen!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!
Thanks Bev and Sera and Christina! The cake was lovely and the flowers and the lovely Strip voucher. Hohoho. Although I'm not attached, you know how I'm gonna spend it. (; HAHAHAHAHA!!! Love y'allll!!
Thanks Chooie! Lovely dinner at Waraku, and the card is the BEST! I like Chooie because he makes me a princess on my birthday...even though he still calls me a mega loser. Bitch. Love youuuu!
Thanks Stef for calling all the way from the States and chatting Every single year! Makes me feel special. Hahaha. Love ya babe!
Thanks Mummy and Daddy! For a lovely gift... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! -psychotic laughter- You know what it is Choo! HAHAHAHAHAHA!
♥ Go shopping! Buy shoes and a nice bag and lotsa clothes. Phroarw! ♥ Get a haircut. ♥ Straighten hair (??) ♥ Have dinner tonight!! ♥ Watch these shows...
♥ Write Thank You notes to some important people in my life ♥ Make a cheesecake. Heh heh heh ♥ Make Rain my boyfriend
Hahahahaha. Rain is my Sexy for March 2007. Or in the way or SML, Sexaye. Hahahahaha
♥ Not get smashed on my birthday ♥ Play nice ♥ Go tanning/swimming ♥ Get my driver's license ♥ Survive exams
I wrote that I agree that one of the saddest things is to be logical and practical in love. Someone said "then you and June will be the saddest ones. we are too old to be impractical. grow up." Anonymous comment. Ew?
I'm in no rush to grow up. It'll get tough in a few years so I want to enjoy it while it lasts. Just because some people choose to believe, no need to get so personal. I don't want to be so cynical when it comes to love.
To each his own.
Oh anyway I'm very happy. I'm getting readership. I don't know how to put blog counter so I don't know how many people read my blog leh. How? Yay for anonymous albeit bitchy comments! I still like.
Spent all day at Starbucks but doesn't feel like I did a lot. Anyway...
Wednesday, went for drinks and Zouk with Chooie! Met Lora and her sister, Sara!
Thursday, Chooie and I met Liane and Nick for dinner and movie! We watched The Fountain. I still don't know what to say about the show though. My thoughts are all over the place.
Met Lich for Starbucks this afternoon. It's been too long babe!
Then met the boys for dinner before heading home! Marcus, Bernard, Alex, Joseph.
These were taken a while back at Settler's Cafe! Liane!! Will miss you when you fly off.
Something pretty interesting happened at Starbucks today. I received a very pretty birthday present from Agnes b. from a stranger. I'm not sure what to think of it because it's pretty strange, but it feels nice.
Chinese New Year wasn't very Chinese-New-Year-sy this year. It was very rushed and I just didn't get into the festive mood. But anyway, Tuesday came and I met Chooie! Shop in town, met up with Michelle and then we went to sing songs!
Rainy weather makes everything seem worse. This year started out great but is turning out to be one of the worst periods of my life. It's as though when one thing goes wrong, everything else follow suit.
I typed out a whole chunk of some things I've been thinking about but then I realized it got a bit too personal. Hahaha. So I'll lock it.
I reformatted my Fujitsu so I have lost all of your blog addresses, except the LJ-ers and a couple others. Am very very sad because my "Blog" folder is EMPTY! Please leave your blog addresses as a tag on this entry!
Comments are screened so no worries if you don't want random people going to your blogs. Privacy assured! :)
Zouk Wednesday. It was sooooo boring when we first got there because we went so early since we had nothing else to do in town anymore. Did you know - many people go to Zouk by bus!
To start things off...
Beer!
All the happy people.
Someone is angry at me because I unthinkingly did something quite rude! Oh no! Well, by the end of the night I was happy high and kinda talking non-stop and hitting Nicky all the way home. Thanks for the ride home, Shawn!
It's amazing how "Forget it la" can suddenly make my entire night bleak.
I want I want I want a new camera. My old one is about four years old and has taken a few thousand photos already. Now the photos aren't as nice. Sad.
If I get a birthday ang pao, which should I buy? The Casio Exilim EX-Z70 or Sony Cybershot DSC-T10/B? Both are damn chio but I go for chio-ness so I dunno which will be a better buy. I like Exilim because the camera captures pictures damn fast! Sigh. Haven't checked prices though. Prepare myself for mega savings because I cannot live without my camera. I need photos with the lovelies! ♥
Chio! Either/or. Which one which one? Chooie! Help!
Speaking of choices, on the bus to town just now I started thinking how much life would be easier if we weren't spoilt for choice. Sure, choices help prevent life from becoming mundane, give you variety and keep things fresh. But then you have to make decisions that may change the entire course of your life. I'm not talking about "Should I have a muffin or a bagel for breakfast?" kinda choice. It's the life altering kind of choice that you may regret making one day.
Think about the Chaos Theory. Our world is a dynamic system where each point is closely linked to other points, whereby each point has significantly different future possibilities. And so, a small shift in the system can lead to a significantly different future. Like the Butterfly Effect where the flutter of the butterfly's wings in one place can cause a tornado to occur at another place.
I'm actually getting quite afraid of what the future.
I haven't been sleeping much nor eating well these day and it shows! So my recent photos are all gross. This has got to change. Anyway, there has been a lack of photo posts not because I look bad, but because my Microsoft Office has been retarded. But it's re-installed and so photos soon! :)
If you can go out with your friends on a work night, I wish you won't tell me you don't want to go out with me on a work night because you need your sleep. I never ever did stop you from going out with your friends, and I feel this is a weak reason to give to illustrate how demanding I was. I don't think I was overreacting in this.
Was just thinking about what went wrong. In what way I was demanding. This wasn't it. Maybe other things like wanting assurance all the time (I mean, it's a new relationship, right?), being the less compromising one and deliberately inciting a reaction out of him by being angsty was going overboard.
Loving someone is more than just being there. I just missed just-the-two-of-us alone time we had the first few months together. Maybe because all his friends are back and leaving soon made it so different. But I still felt out-of-touch with your emotions. I would never stop you from wanting to spend time with your friends, just as you wouldn't stop me, but I want to know that you still bothered to go out with me be it any day of the week. If this is how being a priority is like, I think I'm getting the wrong meaning of what being a priority is. Maybe I'm expecting too much? I don't understand either.
Sorry for needing too much affection than you felt like you could give. It was just different from before and I haven't adjusted to the newly settled pace you were at. That brings insecurity and I was unsure because all you said was that I was overreacting. Someone said that break-ups are easier than actually giving the relationship a real shot. I don't feel like we actually took a real shot at trying to be together. And that's what hurts the most because of what might have been. A real shot where we reached a place where we are comfortable with each other.
Some people don't know half of it but talk as if they themselves are going through it. Turned off. And of course I'm bitter and upset. A huge part of me has just been taken away from me. What, want a jumpy laughy goodbye, thank you and a hearty welcome?
You said, "Love hurts." And I agree.
If it all falls apart, I will never hurt again.
♠ ♠ ♠ ♠ ♠
Met Lionel tonight before he flies back to Aussie next week, on the 14th. After this we're probably not going to meet in a year. In between he had to go off because his bestfriend was having her birthday party, but albeit a short meet-up, it was a good one. Hope all goes well!
We talked about nothing and everything. Jumped from one topic to the next...and we talked about life, love, relationships and happiness. And I felt stronger...? Like even if I don't get all I want in life, just try to make the best of what I've got right now. This might not pertain to romantic relationships, but as long as there is love in your life, let that be enough. Be with the people who want you in their lives and want you to stay, right here, right now. Even if some of them have hurt you in the past, be it intentionally or subconsciously, if they still bring you happiness and make you smile, just hold on to them as long as you can.
Is this getting too emo? Haha. Sorry, but we were having emo talk while taking in the view of the stars tonight. I think writing this down is like a reminder to myself of what are the things that matter in life. Life's not perfect, but such is life.
I want to be able to say, "If I die tomorrow, I will have no regrets."
Someone anonymously commented that slamming the door on someone after the person sends you home without saying thanks is rude. Exact words, "rude? and slamming the door after someone sends u home without even saying thanks isn't rude?" Well, I would say, yes it is rude. But I said,
"Just drop me at the corner here." Richard said, "Huh why?" But Jude just stopped the car and dropped me there. I did say "Thanks." To which Jude replied, "Sure."
Get your facts right (In the way June does it).
Anonymous comments always make my day. Gives me something to bitch about.
Wednesday night Zouk to drink and dance, Thursday night Villa Bali to chill! Met Choo for dinner at Miss Clarity's cafe. The fish dish I had was good! Can't go wrong with breaded fish, right? Chooie had his Oxtail stew with rice. We had a good talk and he said I was zui ying xin ruan. Rawr.
Anyway, after that was supposed to go to MoS for some HP event but we only made it to the doord like an hour after doors closed for the event. So we left for Villa Bali, a damn chill spot. Lotsa dim lights and chill music. We just had a drink each and stayed there for a couple of hours before leaving. The night ended well for us. Then it turned quite bad for me but I'm ok now.
Thanks guys for a fun night out! ♥
Somebody please be free on Valentine's Day so we can chill. I'm a loser I have no date.
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